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In
Out

In again
Out again
In again
Out again

Is this Love?
Or you just in it for the out again?

In again
Out again
In again
Out again

The world’s not calling us to be together
But I’m not listening
Because whatever it says doesn’t matter
What matters is what’s happening

You’re with someone who cares for you
Someone whom you’ve helped to grow
You’re a blessing for any guy it’s true
A fact you’d never admit to know

That’s what’s happening with you
But what’s happening with me?
It’s enough to know the truth
And that’s knowing you’re happy

How do I know that? Cuz’ your smile doesn’t lie
And when I look at you, I see Love in your eyes

The sound of still
Fills and fills
The nothing
Everything

Words become noise
I’m glad that our choice
Is to hold back and stall
And speak silence in all

Nothing is everything
Everything is here
When all that I hear
Is here, you’re here

Everything is here
When you’re here
Nothing is what I hear
But you’re here

With me

You gave
You simply gave
And loved
You simply loved
And lived
You simply lived
Such a selfless life

Thank you, Lola Mina.
All that you gave shines through all that we give.
Your blessed qualities will live on through the family.

You’re entirely with Love now. Praise God.

Like closing doors, dial tones
Like a wasted Polaroid
Like broken strings, and crumbled stones
Like a vacuum in a void

Then it becomes

Like shooting stars, and new days
Like silver lining parades
Like renewed wings, music plays
Like the sun is here to stay

The star in the day
Reminds me of the stars in the night
The symbol of saving grace
Embraced by the unfailing light

I had a dream of her again
But I didn’t see her face
I don’t understand
She didn’t say her name

It was just us
We were alone
It was enough
To feel at home

Who is she?
What does she want from me?
Why is she in my dreams?
I’m asking incompletely

I hope I dream of her again
And not see her face again
Not understand again
Why she doesn’t say her name

These situations so hard to bear
I don’t know how and I don’t know where
But I feel it in the air
Every breath is getting heavier

Dear Lord,
I’m lost in my own mind
I’m seeking you, help me find
Remind me that you’re here
You’re here with me

Thinking used to be so easy
Until my heart began speaking
I’m yearning for something deep inside of me
Though I don’t know what it is

I surrender all these tears
Now it’s your voice I hear
You’re here with me
You’re here with me

You’re here with me
You’re here with me

Dear Lord,
I’m lost in my own mind
I’m seeking you, help me find
Remind me that you’re here
You’re here with me

Jesus…

Although the world may try to compromise me
By trying to take away the beauty unseen
And replace it with materialistic desires
That comes from the shadows of my heart

So many ways to go that lead to nothing
If I’m on my own it’s exactly where I’ll go
The sunshine tells me there’s got to be something
That’s not my own but it’s what I need to know

I need to know that I don’t know
I know nothing at all

I don’t have the strength to live a life fulfilled
Unless it comes from the true source of purpose
When I’m moving too fast, I need to stand still
Be calm, relaxed, not nervous

For life is bright just like the sun in the sky
Though the darkness will always be here
But if I turn my other cheek, and open my eyes
I’ll find meaning in the Truth that’s everywhere

The Truth is everywhere
It’s beautiful
Open my eyes
To your life, Love

Open my eyes
To your life

It’s been way too long
It’s finally time
All of my wrongs
Have taught me right

It’s time to be me
At least try to find
It’s time to release
Everything inside

It is time this time
To open my eyes
To the silver line

What I’m into
What you’re into
Is what makes us
Who we are

I Love my passions
I Love the Truth
Love in action
Through me, through you

It is time this time
To open my eyes
To the silver line

It’s time to live
This life of mine

Broken plans on a Friday night
The cold post-Christmas keeps me in
Wearing home clothes for the home life
I microwave dinner and grab a cold drink

Watching TV here alone
Unusual darkness with clattering sounds
Like shattered pieces of crackling bones
Clashing sounds I hear all around

Some rain and ice falls gently
Soothing is the darkened blue sky
My contemplations now tempt me
To think who am I? Who am I?

I’m looking but watching no more
The smoke from my tray dissipates
My mind and soul I must explore
Perspectives now seem to levitate

Time ceases to exist
Happening in a blink
I take me whole and wholly insist
My soul breaks free to think

To find me would be
The greatest discovery
Not through your eyes but mine
Is where I will find…

What I am looking for
The key to open the door
To more and more
Truth that can’t be ignored

Through not the eyes of my body
They only see what is seen
But the eyes of my soul
That sees through the unseen me

To find me would be
The greatest discovery
Not through your eyes but mine
Is where I will find

Love, the meaning of life

I know who you are
I’ve known you for so long
This is gonna’ be hard
So many ways to go wrong

But I can’t avoid what’s going on

I’ve heard you laugh a million times
I can’t get enough of your smile
I’ve grown to love our talks at night
Even if it’s for a little while

You turn my heart into a child

I’ve seen you through many stages
Changes, so many changes
But I’m still here, and so are you
I’m so comfortable here with you

My innocence is what makes sense
Of everything that’s happening
I simply
Like you

If you don’t feel the same
My feelings will remain
I’ll still be me
You’ll still be you

That’s the beautiful part about it

Time does not define
Love beyond life
Life without Love
Is undefined

Beyond life is eternity
I don’t know how
I can only live for the moment
I can only live for now

Now is a precious gift
It is where I should live
Now offers a way
In exchange for change

Time does not define
Love beyond life
Life without Love
Is undefined

I’m changing

The first time we met
Awkwardness filled the air
But something was there
Something worth discovering

Days, weeks, and months passed
From online conversations
To vocal communications
To lunch on free occasions

We became friends
A bond that bends
But never breaks
Worth not found in mistakes

I greeted you years later
Nothing between us changed
Though life may be rearranged
You’re still you, I’m still me

Days, weeks, and months passed
With scarce words in-between
No need for words of plenty
To say what you mean to me

True friendship is never measured
It’s made, then stored in the heart
No matter how long we’re apart
A friend depends on keeping start

As long as we are who we are
There is no such thing as too far

When the light is out
It is there
The brighter it gets
The darker it becomes

The darker it gets
The heavier it becomes
Fading away
It blends into
Everything
Misleading
No path
No way
Movements become
Wasted actions
Wasted thoughts
Emptiness
In darkness
Though it’s empty
It is heavier than the world

There is only one source
Of Light
Only light
Can conquer dark
It shows the way
The only way
But the brighter it gets
The more apparent
Our shadows become

This light is not empty
It gives everything
Colour
It makes everything
Meaningful
Its aura shows the very essence of
What is
The heaviest emptiness
Gets filled
With something
That makes it lighter than ever

It’s best to keep the light in front
And the shadow behind
For the Light shows
What is real
The shadow
Hides the Truth

Open your eyes

How many times does the Sun have to go up and down
Until you decide to change your frown and come around
Maybe you haven’t told God all that you need to say
There’s always an opportunity in every moment, every day

All you need to do is pray
Then do what you need to do
With Faith

In Love
Never giving up
But giving it up
To God

Always

Like a sunrise
Like a flower’s bloom
Like a shadowed sun
Blocked by the moon

It’s so rare to find someone like you
I don’t even know who I’m talking to

Beautiful as birth
Like finding new life
Like finding a gem on earth
Can I call it mine?

Can I call you mine?

I swear when you come
You do it all the time
You outshine the stars
And the sun combined

For it’s a moment in your eyes
Like embracing a dream
Silhouettes and fireflies
Surrounding you and me

You’re like a secret that’s sealed
Are you real?
Is there more to what I feel?
When will you be revealed?

I swear when you come
You do it all the time
You outshine the stars
And the sun combined

You’re the figure in the light
That I can’t seem to reach
Though I’m willing to fight
If you’re what I need

It’s okay for now if you’re not seen

But I swear when you come
You do it all the time
You outshine the stars
And the sun combined

In my head, it’s all in my head
Everything that was just said
She’s all in my head

Day in, day out
Day in, day out
It comes and goes

What’s it all about?

It’s a shame
When some things remain
The same with no change

Change is more than a feeling
Its action in revealing
Meaning

The sun shines
The water flows
The plants grow

For life
Their purpose to provide
For life

We should learn from the sun
And the water
And the plants

How they are constantly giving
For meaning
For life

What happened to the brightness,
Dots scattered that make what night is?
Is it me, or is it the sky?
Are these clouds all in my mind?

Street lights show the roads
But they all seem to end
Erie is the steel and man made holes
I need to see the light above again

Even for just a second
That’s enough to help me see
A star that I pray for me will beckon
To take away the clouds in me

Light, oh light! I need your light
Take me from consuming black
These clouds take away my sight
From seeing you and coming back

During the sun setting night
In summer’s sight of nine
Look to the sky
To find satin-like silky lines

During a time such as this so fine
Light escapes to prove a truth so divine
That all things are dark sometimes
But always end up with a brighter shine

See not the lines but in-between the lines
Live in this moment of time, all the time
See not the lines but in-between the lines
And you will discover the beauty of life

On the sidewalk
I was walking
Looking at places before me
Behind me, beside me

It was so bright and it still shines
Like highlighted borders on shores
Then from corners came a wind’s blow
That I can feel more and more

It carries and helps me move
But sometimes I stand still
Must be my attitude
Must be the thrill

I have to understand
I can’t control the wind
If all I do is demand
I’ll always be in the place I’m in

Let it flow let it blow
Where it’s gonna’ go I don’t know
There’s a seed, let Him lead
Let go and just feel the breeze

It’s not the past or future
It’s the present I need

Let go and just feel the breeze

I could be talking to a friend on the phone
I could be talking to a friend on MSN
I could be walking on the street alone
Her name can break through all of them

Every letter
Every time used in a sentence
Every beautifully sounding consonance
It adds life to air
When it rolls off my tongue
My soul dances as if a song was sung

I see and hear it
So dramatically
I see black lines
Arranged so perfectly
I hear a name
I must express poetically
I feel flying butterflies
In my stomach, physically

A person who fits it in every way
So sweetly resounding it sways
Everything about her I must say
Her name, her name, her name

If there’s one thing that I could do
To help prevent those sleepless nights
And if that one thing is call you
Then I’ll call you tonight
I see the clock which says 10
I’m here for you, I’ll listen
We can talk or stay in silence
If all you need is a presence

If there’s one thing that I could do
And if that one thing is pray for you
I will pray no matter what you’re going through
See the night, look at the stars
Help is not at all too far
If you just reach further
Further beyond your heart

But if there’s one thing I could do
I’ll be happy if it’s me for you
I’m here on clouds in peace it’s true
These clouds are meant for you too

I’m here on clouds in peace it’s true
These clouds are meant for you too

I’m just an ordinary guy
Who lives by an extraordinary Truth
I don’t have wings to fly
I am, just like you
I’m not way up high
I know nothing too
I’m just an ordinary guy
It’s true
Don’t treat me like I’m special
My worth is not near it
However, my body is the Temple
Of the Holy Spirit
To treat it with respect is what I choose
Love is what I choose to give
A life for Love I don’t refuse
It’s in Heaven that I choose to live

I believe

There’s more to life than what I see
I live for what’s greater than these

Please don’t mind
Don’t be confused
Is it a crime
Discovering you?

My intentions are pure
Top of my head speaks
But I still try to endure
Gripping conversation peaks

I just want to talk
I simply want to show
That I do walk the walk
Of things that I’ve said and shown

What you see is what you get
What you hear is what is true
I’ll try not to forget
All I’m learning about you

The surface is nice, but what’s beneath?
Everything worth everything is not seen
That’s where I want to go, it’s where I want to be
When discovering you, discovering me

If I fall for
The pretty style you wear
The things you do with your hair
How could we ever be?

If you fall for
The things I say when you’re near
The things I know you wanna’ hear
How could we ever be?

What’s all about you?
What’s all about me?
We got to be a part of what’s happening
–Discovery

If I’m falling for you
And if you’re falling for me
Let’s be falling for the things unseen

The eyes beneath the eyes
The skin beneath the skin

Everything the world is not holding

Let the rain fall
Let the winds blow
I know nothing at all
Where life goes, I don’t know
So let the leaves drop
Let it snow, let it snow

Joy is temporary
When I close my eyes
I don’t feel low and weary
When I let go, and let faith guide

I’ve got a happy soul
That’s a part of my being
I’m not in control
Of what I’m not seeing

Let the rain fall
Let the winds blow
I know nothing at all
Where life goes, I don’t know
So let the leaves drop
Let it snow, let it snow

Life brings gifts
In their truest form
Some might not fit
But everlasting things are usually found out of the norm

Let it fall
Let it rise
Let it call, it will call
Call me on the other side

Let the rain fall
Let the winds blow
I know nothing at all
Where life goes, I don’t know
So let the leaves drop
Let it snow, let it snow

We go through heart aches
Smiling through prayers
Love and heart breaks
The motion of life layers

We will have dents and creases
All a part of the enfolding
Layer over layer increases
On top of a shape constantly molding

We go through heart aches
Smiling through prayers
Love and heart breaks
The motion of life layers

Constantly changing lights
That change the hue
Layers appear over night
That give us a sense of new

We go through heart aches
Smiling through prayers
Love and heart breaks
The motion of life layers

Some with holes
Some not complete
All we have to know
Is they’re there for us to see

We go through heart aches
Smiling through prayers
Love and heart breaks
The motion of life layers

One thing I noticed
While I was walking down the street
Strolling on the sidewalk
Focused on my feet

The thing that life gives
Love is what its called
Its how we paint in time with
Layers of colours on our wall

Changes with the season
Changes in our hearts
Atmospheres that we breathe in
Change the way we see things from afar

We’ll constantly see the shadows
If we give into the lust
We must change what we think we know
And always keep the sun ahead of us

Keep on walking
It’s okay to look at your shoes
The light will show you where you’re going
Just don’t forget to look ahead of you

From time to time, raise your head
Choices are always a head away from you
The past is gone, it has gladly flew
The future is now
Now is ahead of you

Guess it’s really going on
Missing two years in time
As long as you’re gone
I’ll be fine

A joke is all it seemed
That we wouldn’t make it this far
But now on friday the thirteen
What was us, will be the lonely dimming stars

That’s it, that’s all it will be
The past, a lesson, a blessing
No kisses, no roses, no sentimentality
Just a memory of loving

So I guess it’s really going on
Missing two years in time
As long as you’re gone
I’ll be fine

On that day, I’ll lay down
And look at the night sky
One last time I’ll pretend
I’ll pretend to see it through your eyes

Beauty is worth one last glance
It’s worth one last cry
Let’s go for one last dance
With the stars before goodbyes

It’s really going on
Missing two years in time
As long as you’re gone
I’ll be fine

I’ll be fine
As long as you’re gone
I’ll be fine

I’ll be just fine…

I was young, so was my heart
Before, it was never more than a body part
A vital organ that kept me going
Made sure I always kept it from showing

Held in my feelings, I kept my composure
Avoided being vulnerable
Then came her, my heart’s exposure
Released when it became unbearable

Love bloomed
It zoomed
I was all alone in my room
Til’ I cleaned the debris with a broom

In the depths of hearts exists absolute beauty
To find it, you must make it your duty
When broken your chance increases
So look for the diamond in between the pieces

Then drops you through goodbyes
Get up or give up? It’s all up to you
Suffer, or find the things that will get you through
My old heart broke but now it’s new

Was hanging on a wire
Now I’ve let go
Thought there’d be fire
I just didn’t know

Fell for a while with nothing to grab
Except for shadows and air
Along the way, I got stabbed
By eyes with a piercing stare

Just…

Kept falling, and falling
Deeper and deeper
Heart kept calling and calling
Louder and louder

Terrified to a point of cowardice
I was powerless
Until God gave me the courage to rise
And opened my eyes

Everything is now clearly in sight
No more gray, just black and white
Oh, and orange, green and blue
Heck even some yellow too

If you’re always focusing on two
You’ll see just one
Thinking it’s all we need when it’s new
But what happens when it’s done?

I fell into a hole
Thinking it was endless
Became numb in my soul
Hopelessly senseless

Just…

No one deserves to feel this way
To feel doomed when they pray
Constantly against a rope
Everyone deserves a little hope

Be true to yourself
Be true to others
Being true to oneself
Makes a good sister/brother

Just see
Just move
Just be
Just groove

Don’t shove
Just give
Just love
Just live

When there’s nothing left to say
Pray…

The war inside will cease
You’ll repair piece by piece
Pray with all of your heart
And you will find peace

Feels great, but sometimes shines too bright
Dominantly overtakes everything else in sight
Left with just one colour, beautiful for sure
But was it worth all my effort to focus on just her?

The leftovers moved to my blind spot
I didn’t even ask myself why
Or if it was on purpose, was it not?
Guess I decided to use just one dye

Unfortunately it ran out
I squeezed everything I could
To the ends I fought in a bout
To discard it, I knew I should

Looked around for a while with the lights off
In a room I didn’t recognize as home
I opened the exit door and stepped outside
And saw a green field with a rainbow

The beautiful colours overwhelm my senses
So vivid, I now have a spectrum before me
I’m so glad I’ve learned through many lessons
How mixed reds, yellows, and blues shine equally

Inner demons tamper with trust
Self-control, self-combusts
Words said with an unclean soul
Heart becomes black as coal

They instigate out of the blue
And there’s absolutely nothing you can do
They tear you up deep down inside
Causes dynamic emotions to collide

Exhaust the mind to a point of distress
Makes it impossible for one to confess
Everything that’s been bottled for a while
They hide the reasons for you to truly smile

They develop through a course of time
From the depths they lurk, their mission to climb
To the top where the whole world can see
Just how horrible, and deceiving one can be

These inner demons must be kept constrained
If not, one’s life will slowly be drained
If so, one’s life will be changed

…for the better.